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Eros, intimacy & the things between

A wider lens on desire, relationships and the human experience.

Eros, intimacy & the things between

A wider lens on desire, relationships and the human experience.

What is nearest to the heart is often farthest from the word
Rumi

We have surprisingly little language for some of the things we experience.

When attraction ignites, slow or fast - the pull is unmistakeable.
But where it actually wants to lead us to?

Maybe I'm drawn to someone.
But do I want a relationship?

Maybe I'm raw with longing.
Does that mean something is missing?

Maybe I find myself in relationships that slip like a bar of soap from all familiar categories. We feel nameless desires we barely understand - let alone know how to explain to whoever they're coiled around.

Sexuality itself is often corralled and locked up into a small corner of our lives : somewhere intensely private and mostly taboo, focused on who we sleep with.

But Eros is bigger than that. Wilder than that.

Sometimes it says Let's stay up all night with margaritas, paint our toes in a bath. Eros says You make me feel braver. Tell me about those scars. Can you help me with my kids? Can you walk by my side to the hospital?

Sometimes Eros points to qualities and says Teach Me, Feed me, Work with Me. Show me how to be big and strong, how to be sensitive and still. Sometimes it wants to fuck to oblivion and others it just wants to sit at the amazon's feet while she bakes, because some days - that is the priceless peace the heart aches for.

My experience in Tantra, embodiment and intimacy has given me years exploring those nuances.
I bring all this knowledge into my Tarot readings, especially when questions of relationships, desire and connection arise.

Intimacy has more than one shape.

Sexuality, affection, emotional closeness, intellectual connection and shared creative energy can overlap, but they aren't interchangeable.

You might experience a profound connection with someone.
There's infinite ways for this to express itself.
You might want physical affection without sensuality. Sensuality without sex. Sex without romance. Romance without living together.

Having more ways to understand intimacy gives us more room to make choices that actually fit everyone involved - and to revisit these choices as things change.

Desire is an invitation - but to what?

A powerful longing can feel like an instruction: pursue this person, change your relationship, make something happen.

But desire can also be something to listen to without immediately acting on it.

What does it awaken?
What does it reveal about what you want, what you miss, what you value or what is becoming possible?

Sometimes the most interesting exploration begins when we stop treating every feeling as a problem that needs an immediate solution.

The outer story is only part of the story.

When we're beguiled with some strong redhead with a dazzling smile, it's easy to become absorbed in what they want, what they feel, or how available they really are.

Meanwhile - we can overlook our own part in the situation.

What are we projecting?
What are we hoping this person will give us?
What are we avoiding saying?
What needs are we not recognising in ourselves?

By taking the time to understand our own experience, we choose how we participate in it.

Bringing it back to real life.

Exploring these layers has an immediate impact on your life.

It can help you find language for subtle experiences, communicate desires and boundaries more clearly, recognise what kind of connection you're actually seeking, and make choices that respect everyone involved.

Sometimes that means having a conversation. Sometimes it means bringing to light a previously unspoken assumption, or changing our agreements. Sometimes it means allowing a feeling to exist without needing to turn it into something else.

The point isn't to arrive at a predetermined answer. It's to understand what's happening well enough to meet it with curiosity, honesty and integrity.

A perspective shaped by experience

My understanding of these questions comes from a decade of immersion in Tantra, somatic practices, sacred sexuality and group facilitation. I've worked for years as a tantric masseuse. I've supported Temple Initiations and held countless group rituals.

I've spent much of that time in spaces where people explore intimacy, desire, relationships and embodiment as paths of radical exploration and self-knowing.

This experience informs the perspective I bring to Tarot. It allows me to engage with questions that can otherwise be difficult to articulate, and to explore them without assuming that everyone wants the same kind of relationship, intimacy or life.

I don't offer separate sexuality coaching or bodywork. This is part of the knowledge and experience I bring to my readings.

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